Posted By Kelly Crawford on April 5, 2010
Perhaps the greatest peace, the most overwhelming joy came to me shortly after I came home from my job as a school teacher to be with my children. I remember inhaling the sheer span of time in my morning, giddy over the fact that I didn’t have to snap, “Hurry up” or some other time-induced command at my little ones who had barely learned to tie their shoes.
I woke up, stretched, believed the sun streaming into my window to be more lovely than ever before, and it hit me: this is what I was created for. That was the answer to a question I had carried–never asked, mind you, but carried around in my heart for years. With the whole day–no, a whole lifetime in front of me, I could finally focus all my energies and passions into the one thing I knew mattered more than any earthly thing: my home and the people contained therein.
I heard someone say, “Nature hates a vacuum”, and it is true; our lives–our hearts and souls will fill themselves with something. But unless that something is the thing for which we were designed, it never satisfies.
So as a young mother, I realized that my good grades, my gold graduation stoles, my diploma–all those things had left me incomplete. But God, in His mercy, showed me that my desire to make a difference, to shape the world and to change those around me were desires He gave me, but the way to fulfill them was also His plan.
Today, nine years later, I have poured out my heart in gratitude more than a couple of times to the Lord for tugging at my heart and bringing me into this sphere of life where my joy is complete, and where I daily find the Kingdom work before me, looming larger than I am, yet met with the same power of the Almighty that led Moses across the Red Sea.
“Faithful is He who called you Who also will do it.”